Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Not totally sure what I am doing with the blog, In The Common Hours, any more. When my mom died in the spring, it became a more private place. And then I turned to actual private places to write in my grief, not here. When I have a post that seems fit for public eyes, I find myself posting it to my work blog. It feels easier to justify the time to post, I'm able to carve out time when I tell myself, 'it's for work.' Otherwise I think of a moment, a story, I'd like to capture here on the blog but the space and time to do it never arrives and has to be taken. Right now, the time I can take is spent else where.
And when I do arrive here, I feel overwhelmed with grief. Not that I've written that much about Mom here, but because I did write so freely here. Or maybe it is just because of the soundtrack of this blog this year.
I wish I could remember whom exactly I shared my private blog site with...not many, but now that I've become so self-indulgent with it, more than I wish. Thankfully there are only a handful who read it and I know each of you are forgiving and kind. I would like to continue for all the same old reasons, but need to figure out where, when and so on. Most likely I will combine my personal and my professional blogs now. Choose which posts from here would be okay to share there? I don't know.
I know I'll keep this blog through December at least. I'm pleased to have posted every month so far this year, and want to round out 2012 having at least done that.